my body is experience silence for the first time in a long time. it's nice. it's authentic silence because i want to be by myself for days on end. i'm not rummaging through thoughts. its just my body splitting through water like a canoe. smooth sailing, clean breaks. no turns. not looking back. trying not to at least.

i lie. it's not always nice. somedays you just want someone to love you the whole day through. it can't be done.