This following program is dedicated to the city and people of
San Francisco, who may not know it but they are beautiful and so
is their city this is a very personal song, so if the viewer
cannot understand it particularly those of you who are European
residents save up all your bread and fly trans love airways to
San Francisco U.S.A., then maybe you'll understand the song, it
will be worth it, if not for the sake of this song but for the
sake of your own peace of mind.




i've just arrived to san francisco! i was in santa cruz just hours ago. sunny all day. sunny yesterday and sunny yesterday (they day after yesterday i mean). three days ago, rainy! i've been well taken care of and have played with horses and dogs and chickens and have been dining finely with the cohens. as i was leaving sonya gave me some of the best lemons i have ever had! meyer lemons- i think thats what they are called. ah, succulent!

i'm with my sister now, and her old apt is empty. so very good to see her. we were trying to look for something i had left behind, and we came across all these other things that are mine. i think a year ago i would have caused a ruckus but im sort of at an age where i'm willing to share my shoes with her now.

right now her roommate is getting ready go to a mos def event. she has a shiny blue gown on. something with a sexy wrap around the waist and shoes that EXACTLY match her dress and purse. i honestly did not know that something like this was possible. exact match? amazing!

south to the stomach

squished up holidays mean eating well: today was tamales day! the most delicious day of the year! i think we made about sixty tamales and 15 sopas. i ate five sopas and took 7 or something tamales home. i had 3 mexican taffe things, 5 gummies, and one mango lime shake that i spilled on the carpet also.

it's 8.30! i'm going to be late for my date with the book store! i've got research to do on where i'll take a train to in mid jan. i was almost sure i had my heart set on santa fe, nm but i'm having second thoughts now. the travel shelves will be of some help tonight!

i keep smiling because:
i love night hiking
xmas bbqs always go bad in the best way possible
i'm an auntie now!

e.e. cummings

so far as i am concerned, poetry & every other art was & is & forever will be strictly and distinctly a question of individuality... if poetry is your goal, you've got to forget all about punishments & all about rewards & all about self styled obligations & duties & responsibilities et cetera & infinitum & remember one thing only: that it's you- nobody else- who determine your destiny & decide your fate

the reach of poetry

this upcoming monday will mark two weeks of vacation! while i've picked up some of my school books, i haven't really done anything considerably academic. it is something worth acknowledging because i've always been afraid of following a career oriented path like my mother. fortunately, i love things like the cinema, drinking tea, and maundering (although that is part work also) and those things keep me steady. so far though, my vacation has consisted of practicing ukulele, swimming, night hiking and eating. it may not seem like it, but those things take boatloads of time.



as soon as the new year starts i'm back on (school) track. i bought 20 rolls of tri-x today and if everything goes accordingly i'll be in s.f. for new years, and santa cruz prior to that. new mexico sometime in mid january. and san diego and palm springs this week hopefully.

i've been watching these mid 60s bob dylan takes. they are filmed in black in white and they make me go crazy! the starkness of the black is so amazing and i feel very little need to work in color. it reminds me that my curiosity and turbulent love for the world is nourished by all of my maundering and recorded by black and white film.

Things that are going on!

i am home! strange and wonderful so far. right now i am at erin's house, and her and her friend are out for a smoke. we are going to see a movie tonight at the egyptian theatre. i think it's an old famous one called All About Eve.



i experienced the taste of burrata today! it's an amazing, uber fresh mozzarella cheese. it has a slushy consistency for cheese, in between sour cream and milk. it's just so delicious.

i have been thinking about my wonderful friends since i've been here. how brilliant they are. how lucky i am. how things are pretty good when i can step back a little.

i have been thinking about roger dangerfield also. i saw him at jack in the box once on lincoln blvd and he had ordered a lot of food. this was right before he passed away.


i also want to say that i love the internet. hm, time for a nap right now.