you are my what

headache from exhaustion!!!

very little time to update these days; very little time for everything it seems. much of the ordinary and calmingly mundane tasks need to be done after a good friend (mm) visited me here in bkk for two weeks. sorrowful, but also a frustrating good bye because i was so damn tired - not completely my best self. but hey, we island hopped for 6 days, trekked on non-developed forests, and partied a little too hard on and off islands.

going back to the US soon and am losing concentration at work about it. i need write a good one about gender and CF. it's been fermenting in my brain since last week, and i think since i left work early today to go home and sleep (but listened to weird non-vocal music instead) i should start writing about it today. this is what procrastination sounds like from me. strangely, it doesn't happen often enough because it feels unfamiliarly comforting to worry about something not getting done.

also i feel an illogical hate for all contemporary movies right now. why do we even bother to express ourselves in the one million embarrassing lights of hollywood? and why are we so misinformed, under-educated (including myself), and/or just wrong? a lot of displaced and irrational feelings from exhaustion. i just don't want to be around anyone for the rest of the week.