i feel as though i am not yet in my skin. or that i have left my skin behind and i cannot find it. okay so i'm trying to crawl back into my skin, but i gained 20 lbs, and i need to rethink the situation which probably means learning to stand still and accept that i am more naked than before because i've embarrassed myself as witnesses saw me trying to get back in my skin. actually though, i wish a pot of gold could be found underneath my bed and then i would pay all my parking tickets and the trivial things that i will be giving up to compensate the accrued penalties. thoughts! you must leave the mind!

perfect time to go back to la.