how is it possible to make people understand that artists are not interested in art?

been working day and night painting etc. walls are done, ceiling will be done tomorrow, and the floors tuesday. i want my kitchen to look like this bathroom:



i think i could do it myself. i could get the sink on a quick trip to baja mexico! im determined to live in a comfortable setting before anything else. its quite frustrating at times because i move from being so excited to being so sad really fast. i've been working hard BUT i want to be able to do photo work already and test new ideas and drink tea already. in the meantime i am stuck in my brothers studio that is filled half way to the ceiling with boxes of my things.

right now i wish i could find a way to express the sadness of sex coinciding w becoming an adult, those brushing experiences that leave you thinking about everyone.

hm, along with my history of religion class, i return to thinking about themes of devotion.