who is there? my tribe

it's very cold here. family and friend gathering makes up for it. such strong ties to mama - private and intense. i think my brother has his own version. amazing how that happens. right now everyone's already gone- that was so fast.

to be done, in the warmest room of my house, my bedroom:

re-curate plants
study for exam
cv
internalize
horticulture courses?
california identity
listen to j. mitchell's blue

suddenly i want to know everything about her, anything mama has to say.

encouragement this morning on my visual development. it feels strange because i'm familiar with no feedback, no dialogue. in that way it's very sad. today feels pretty sad actually.

zen

when the student is ready, the teacher appears.

wouldn't it be nice

sickness reins

low key busy:
individual arts grant for artists seminar
cover letters
wisconsin southeast asian heritage language program
thai homework
thai forestry reading
san francisco galleries

drunk

we act in harmony with our conscience

yamamoto masao

a kind of amazing day on several levels:

- intense concentration/real hard reading (thai forestry: a critical history)
- a stronger organization of my itinerary/destination points/historical sites of political ecology
- photography resources/contacts in the sf area
- an amazing lecture by darcy padilla
- being vibrationally excited for how much there is to do!
- feeling the hard work
- inspiration all day