


pain is wading in my stomach, and so i'm trying to refocus my attention here.
it's week 7! the kids are flying out of the nest next week, and then i guess i'll try to soar to the sky. but i am going to predict my wax wings melting, and i'll be back on the ground figuring what i need to do to just walk.
i have been spending my days off with friends at a small cabin in the woods reading, bbqing and shooting guns.
i haven't been particularly good about sending letters but for affirmation purposes i am so good at thinking about all the people i love and miss. i think about you and you all the time, and how i just want to listen to music with you. how i want to go fishing with you. how i want to sleep next to you and make tea in my underwear with you. and i want to share all my fresh fruit with you, and how good we always look together because we are having so much fun. i think about how if i went a million miles away nothing would ever change my love for you. i miss you and you and you and you so bad.